Today is Sunday, March 20, 2010.
Today has been a very lonely day for me.
At church this morning, Pastor Dave gave the message and he again stated something I find quite profound: "Belonging is very powerful."
Belonging IS very powerful.
Belonging is VERY powerful.
Belonging is very POWERFUL.
Where do I belong?
Have you ever felt like you exist, but don't really belong anywhere per se? I think maybe I feel just 'not special' and I just want to feel 'special'. I want to feel like I am adored, like I am loved because I am me. I want to feel the specialness of being the only daughter still alive. I want to feel like I am loved because her son chose me and for no other reason. I want to feel loved plurally. I feel very, very singular.
I am very glad I have no sons and therefore, will have no 'daughters-in-laws'. I will strive very hard to teach my daughters to love their husband's mothers & fathers . . . to walk in love . . . I want so much to set the example, I am just confounded with how hard it is to walk that way.
I am amazed how the world entices us with its pleasures and we are so easily 'ensnared'. Hebrews 12:1-2 "Because we are surrounded by a community of believers, let us put off everything that hinders and the sin which so easily ensnares and let us run with perservance the race marked out for us."
Dear Lord Jesus, thank you for loving me while I was still your enemy. Thank you for your atoning death for my sin. Thank you for hearing my cries. Thank you for always loving me, no matter what. Thank you Lord Jesus for being my plural. You are my "exceedinly great reward"!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Whasup? or What's Up?
Gosh - a few things before I forget them:
State Basketball was last weekend and the girls and I went to BB games Wed., Thurs., Friday and Saturday! Ally won!!! We are so proud of her and had so stinkin' much fun!
Emily got her ears pierced, Thursday, March 11 at Claires in Hutchinson. She has all of a sudden grown up and is a chatty kathy and so adorably precious! Love her.
Ryan arrived home from Washington DC - great trip!
Ellen got a perfect on her reading state assessments.
Um - Ryan is pressuring me, so I will have to continue later - UGH!!!
TIME ELASPSES . . .
Okay! It is 9:49 pm and we are home from a blessed, wonderful day together! Dear Lord Jesus - thank You so very, very much for the time we have spent together! All 5 of us went to Wichita this afternoon. We met with BCO's travel agent regarding our Summer vacation. Then we went to Justice (for Miss Erin especially). The girls and I totally hog a dressing room while precious Ryan holds purses (3 to be exact); opines on the girls' choices and retrieves new sizes. Honestly, God, You could not have given me someone I love or want more! Thank you so very, very much!
After we buy $85.00 worth of clothing (which all seem very happy with, especially Erin), we head to my favorite - COFFEE at Starbucks! And, yes, it was excellent. The Pike Roast combined with the cone portion (after ice cream was scraped out thank you Emily) from McDonalds - well, it hit the spot to say the least. Then we went to Hobby Lobby to get some 'scrapbook' stuff for Ellen & Erin. AGain, major 'hoorahs!'. I was extremely elated to find a wall hanging of an elephant,lion, giraffe and some other African animal to hang in the rec room ON SALE of 90% off! Hoorah!
Okay - then we hit Sams and walked out with $155.00 of food (and 3 pants for Ryan). We had a democratic convention on dinner and it was unaminous - Olive Garden. So, we oinked out on salad, breadsticks and spaghetti! Oh, it was soooo good.
Did I mention that Miss Emily, who has hit a major growth spurt as evidenced by the rush of air out of her mouth in conjunction with her vocal chords for what seems hours on end, had to POOP at two different places! Ugh!
Did I mention that Ellen is at a sleepover at Grandma Bonnie's and Erin & Emily conned their sweet daddy into airing up the air mattress and are having a sleepover of their own.
Did I mention that "to whom much is given, much is required" Luke 12:48? The Holy Spirit so convicted me that as I/we want to give the girls so many opportunities, we are charged with teaching them that with privileges comes responsibilities. I dearly believe that God has allowed us so many things, but we will be held accountable and I want to stand before Him when my time here is done and hear "well done, My good & faithful servant". Oh . . . blessed be His name!
Did I mention we had a blessed, wonderful day together?
Amen.
State Basketball was last weekend and the girls and I went to BB games Wed., Thurs., Friday and Saturday! Ally won!!! We are so proud of her and had so stinkin' much fun!
Emily got her ears pierced, Thursday, March 11 at Claires in Hutchinson. She has all of a sudden grown up and is a chatty kathy and so adorably precious! Love her.
Ryan arrived home from Washington DC - great trip!
Ellen got a perfect on her reading state assessments.
Um - Ryan is pressuring me, so I will have to continue later - UGH!!!
TIME ELASPSES . . .
Okay! It is 9:49 pm and we are home from a blessed, wonderful day together! Dear Lord Jesus - thank You so very, very much for the time we have spent together! All 5 of us went to Wichita this afternoon. We met with BCO's travel agent regarding our Summer vacation. Then we went to Justice (for Miss Erin especially). The girls and I totally hog a dressing room while precious Ryan holds purses (3 to be exact); opines on the girls' choices and retrieves new sizes. Honestly, God, You could not have given me someone I love or want more! Thank you so very, very much!
After we buy $85.00 worth of clothing (which all seem very happy with, especially Erin), we head to my favorite - COFFEE at Starbucks! And, yes, it was excellent. The Pike Roast combined with the cone portion (after ice cream was scraped out thank you Emily) from McDonalds - well, it hit the spot to say the least. Then we went to Hobby Lobby to get some 'scrapbook' stuff for Ellen & Erin. AGain, major 'hoorahs!'. I was extremely elated to find a wall hanging of an elephant,lion, giraffe and some other African animal to hang in the rec room ON SALE of 90% off! Hoorah!
Okay - then we hit Sams and walked out with $155.00 of food (and 3 pants for Ryan). We had a democratic convention on dinner and it was unaminous - Olive Garden. So, we oinked out on salad, breadsticks and spaghetti! Oh, it was soooo good.
Did I mention that Miss Emily, who has hit a major growth spurt as evidenced by the rush of air out of her mouth in conjunction with her vocal chords for what seems hours on end, had to POOP at two different places! Ugh!
Did I mention that Ellen is at a sleepover at Grandma Bonnie's and Erin & Emily conned their sweet daddy into airing up the air mattress and are having a sleepover of their own.
Did I mention that "to whom much is given, much is required" Luke 12:48? The Holy Spirit so convicted me that as I/we want to give the girls so many opportunities, we are charged with teaching them that with privileges comes responsibilities. I dearly believe that God has allowed us so many things, but we will be held accountable and I want to stand before Him when my time here is done and hear "well done, My good & faithful servant". Oh . . . blessed be His name!
Did I mention we had a blessed, wonderful day together?
Amen.
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