It's called a "momma's love". I learned this love from my momma and her momma and I hope I can pass it on to my own girls. I am attracted to elephants and I find them fascinating. They are extremely matriarchal . . . they travel in herds, they can be fierce when threatened, they love their babies and they have deep souls . . . to look into their eyes must be one of the most beautiful experiences as I believe you would see another world.
My momma has always loved me. And her momma has always loved me. How unbelievably blessed am I. Three things happened this week which brought to mind how blessed I am . . .
1) My sweet niece had to give a not-more-than-2-minute speech, but a not-less-than-1.5-minute speech. So, she asked if I would listen to her after church this morning while a friend videoed. OF COURSE! Absolutely of course I would do this. Thanks for asking Miss Nat! Anyway, she gets up there (the 6 of us listening are about 6 feet away) and she starts: "Hi, my name is Natalie Kaufman, I'm a Senior at Moundridge High School and I'm going to tell you a little bit about myself." No joke, my eyes watered and tears welled and I had a flashback of my own sweet sister saying so much of the very same and I was overcome with love for this darling; this sweet young woman I have watched grow up since infancy and I wanted to grab her and hide her away and not let her grow up anymore or want her to graduate or time to keep ticking. My heart was so full it absolutely hurt because of the tenderness . . . like when a pregnant woman has to drink so much water so a sonogram will give a good reading . . .you are so full it hurts until it can be let go.
Dear Natalie, Just so you know. I love you and pray God's best for you and I hope that I can be a positive influence in your life for a long, long time. I ask God to let me see you get married, have babies and just be a part of whatever you do for Him! Praying wisdom & guidance for you as you look to next year. I am always here if you need me and will protect you as fiercely as I can. You were precious today. Love,m.
2) It is a wonderful, marvelous 2 year anniversary for me! Two years ago today, Ryan hauled me to the Kansas Spine Hospital for my back surgery. God's hand was in everything that transpired . . . from the rupture to the restoration. God, to You be the glory for all You orchestrated on my behalf . . . thank You! As Chris Tomlin sings Your promises are "Yes and Amen!" I thank You over and over and am so grateful. Each time I walk, run, exercise I marvel at how wonderful You did put me together and I praise You!
3) We were at Hutch Trinity vs Moundridge JV game watching Ellen and in the foyer of the gym there is a crucifix - or a statue of Jesus on the cross with His side pierced and a red marking to symbolize the piercing. I have never seen a picture or symbol of this where I noticed his right side was pierced. In my mind, everytime I have read the scriptures I have always pictured his left side and I'm not sure why. I was searching the scriptures today in church and have not yet found if it says which side was pierced . . . again, it's not a new insight into His word, its just I saw it in a new way . . . something I have read many times before. So here's my thought: I spent a few hours with my grandma today - just her and me. I tried to look at her and really notice her--her hair, her eyes, the way she talks, her mannerisms, the joy in what she was sharing with me-church, her friends, Linda, Helen, the neighbors across the street she took bread too; Arlo & Teresa who she also made bread for; the calendar she writes anything down she wants to remember and everything she thinks of for each day. I just tried to soak her into my being . . . telling her things I remember about growing up with her--special foods she made; looking at some pictures and clothes she had in her closet. God, I love her so much and I thank You for Your provision to her! Like I prayed on the way home--when You call her, please let it be a short call. We know the number and will talk with her again!
It's a momma's love like Mary's when the bible tells us she "was treasuring all these things in her heart and meditating on them." Luke 2:19
It's a momma's love that nourishes and comforts and cares and cries. God, help me to leave a legacy of Love! I want my family to know how dear they are to me. How much I love them. I want the world to know how much I love You. How I praise Your name. How Your love carries me.
Thank You and Amen!
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