And it is Sunday.

Today is a really beautiful day outside for the 24th of November.

And it is Sunday.  

So it is the Lord’s day and He has blessed with gathering, worshiping, feasting, visiting and time.

As i take time today to reflect and think and ponder the feelings of my heart . . . i am sad.  

First, I wish I could love myself they way Jesus loves me.

Second, I wish I could easily forgive and love those I am connected to by extension.

Third, I 'want' to display joy because I am so grateful for Jesus in my life . . . He is my hope.  My only hope.  And my desire.  And fulfiller of my deepest needs.  Protector of my deepest fears.  Music in my loneliest night.

Fourth, I wrestle with the effort I have to give with those that do not consider Him worthy enough . . .

Lord, if you took me tonight I would be relieved.  I am tired and weary in this world and I am ready for Heaven and joy and rejoicing and love all around me.

God, go before us this day and EVERY day.  Be with our girls and please make right what Ryan and I do wrong in raising/teaching/guiding them.  Give us wisdom Lord!  Until You take me home, please anoint me with Your wisdom and guide me in the way of truth and righteousness!

Lord, I pray for Brandon Roth and his back.  God, You have granted me a miracle with mine and I'm asking for a miracle for him!

Give, and it will be given to you; a good measure--pressed down, shaken together, and running over--will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you."  ~Luke 6:38

Oh Jesus, help me to keep my hands open after giving so that i can receive your blessing!
amen and amen!

p.s.  thank You sweet Jesus for the lesson today.  For the jog this morning.  For new mercies every morning!