Today is Friday and it is absolutely, the most gorgeous Fall day God ever created! Most of the leaves are lush on the ground; the sun is setting in the sky; the wind is blowing slightly; my girls are alive & healthy; my husband loves me; my home shelters & warms me; my health is a gift to me; my Lord & Saviour adores me! How blessed I am.
Oh God in Heaven - how Majestic is Your name in all the Earth! O Lord, O Lord, how majestic is Your name in all the Earth . . . Oh Lord!
I was priviledged enough to spend the day with my darling daughter, Emily. We played together; we made a craft together; we made some no-bake cookies together; we read some books together; we walked to get the girls together. Dear Lord, although You know; I write this so that my girls will know how I cherish each one of them. I was literally so full of joy today, I almost just wept tears of love. Thank you for the great privilege of being their mom in spite of the abuse i gave my body when i was younger. Thank you for washing away all my inquity and remembering it no more.
I am so grateful for the love of a mother & father--a Godly love from each of them. Thank you for the example they have been and are to my personally and to my family. Thank you for the sincere love they have for my husband, Ryan. And, mostly, thank you for the love they have for You!
God, thank you for my dear brother & sister; both of whom have walked some ugly roads with me. Thank you for letting me be loved by them and for the opportunity to know and love them as well.
Psalm 130 - my soul crys out to You, Yahweh. All are guilty - no one can stand before You. My soul watches and awaits Your coming; You will give Mercy Abundant & You will give Full Redemption!
Praise You O Mighty One - Lord of Lords & King of Kings! Amen.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
I survived & earned a PR
Yea!!! I'm home from leaving yesterday with Doug & Pam to meet Sara & AJ in KC for the 'big race' today. Oh! It is so good to be home. I missed my little girls very much, but it was also very nice to just not worry about anybody but me. Regarding the race: the weather was cold and I'm so glad i bought a jacket there to wear while we ran. I wore capris, my new warm long-sleeved shirt, my gloves and my new jacket. Actually, I took the jacket off and tied it around my waist for about 9 miles of the race, but i was glad i had it. I thought i was going to die around mile 10 - there were some really major hills. I also thought 'i have to go to the bathroom very, very badly and I would feel much better if i could go to the bathroom'. There were no bathrooms from mile 10 - the end. I also remember thinking 'why in the world am i doing this?' 'this is awful!'. I prayed and asked God to carry me & help me through this, because I was pooped!
As I crossed the finish line, I was jacked! I made 2 hours (my personal goal) and so I was pumped! Overall, it was a great time. I enjoy Doug & Pam and there family and we just had a great time:)
Regarding at home: this was the menu. McDonalds for Emily Friday night (the girls were at a cheerleading clinic). Donuts Saturday morning; McDonalds AGAIN for all the girls Saturday for lunch. House was clean when I left - not too bad when I returned. All the beds were made - have not learned if that was this morning or quick before i got home. I made supper tonight - turkey tacos (yum!). Enjoyed a bud light w/ lime. Totally kissed on my girlies! I love being home! Thank you God for Your blessing this weekend on my life. May I honor You with it and may "I sow seeds and not grow weary so that I may reap a harvest" Gal. 6:9
As I crossed the finish line, I was jacked! I made 2 hours (my personal goal) and so I was pumped! Overall, it was a great time. I enjoy Doug & Pam and there family and we just had a great time:)
Regarding at home: this was the menu. McDonalds for Emily Friday night (the girls were at a cheerleading clinic). Donuts Saturday morning; McDonalds AGAIN for all the girls Saturday for lunch. House was clean when I left - not too bad when I returned. All the beds were made - have not learned if that was this morning or quick before i got home. I made supper tonight - turkey tacos (yum!). Enjoyed a bud light w/ lime. Totally kissed on my girlies! I love being home! Thank you God for Your blessing this weekend on my life. May I honor You with it and may "I sow seeds and not grow weary so that I may reap a harvest" Gal. 6:9
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Poor Jerry.
Before I forget to record this; I wanted to write and try and describe how precious it is, the voice of my little girls. Emily, in particular, right now warms my heart as I'm relaying a recent drive of ours. We did get a new vehicle about a year 1/2 ago - one with a DVD player which we were definetely NOT going to use unless a long trip. Well, anything over a block can constitue as a long trip depending on mom's needs (i.e some quiet time, some dicussion time, some mom music time). Anyway, a favaorite of the girls' shows to watch is Tom & Jerry (of which we now have 2 dvd's). And, it never fails, during certain episodes, as I look back at all 3 munchkins lined up in a row with their ear phones on, I hear this "poor jerry" with the sweetest little voice God ever created I think. A few minutes pass, and again I hear this "poor jerry" from my little Emily. Emily has yet to figure out that Jerry, the cat, will always lose. And, so, he succeeds in getting her sympathy for the moment. Sometimes I secretly play that dvd so I can hear her say . . . "poor jerry". Oh, Emily - lucky mommy! I love you:)
Monday, October 5, 2009
Weekly Wonders
Okay - it has officially been 1 week of 24 hour days since little Miss Erin crashed her bike, sending us to the ER with blood and bleeding and broken teeth and bruises and much, much pain. God - you have created us so marvelously. Our bodies are awesome! We went to have Erin's 4 stitches removed today. Her face is still swollen a bit and the side & underneath is turning bluish green, but it is amazing of how she has healed! Her lip scabs are almost gone; and her gums look so much better; I just sit in awe of how God created & formed us.
My heart hurts for Cindy Otte & her family--Bryan, Emily, Mel, Erma and others. The body is an amazing creation, yet sometimes God allows the body to succomb to awful diseases . . . hers was cancer. What a brave, brave woman she was. What a hero she is. Thank you Lord Jesus for her courage; for her love; for her Faith in You when all seemed for naught. Thank you for her life and the gift that it is. May people be aware of her gift and use if for Your glory!
Ryan's in Tampa, FL now for Metalcon. He was given notice that his pay would resume with the next paycheck - thank you, Lord, also for this. Dear God, I pray he continues to humble himself before you and know in his heart that he is a FROG (fully relying on God). Wow - we all need to think that because, even if you like frogs, they are just not the prettiest things YOu did create - ha!
Ellen & Emily are Ellen & Emily. Sassafrass (which I am respectfully trying to work on) and Big Mouth Chicken Little (too big for her britches, but she doesn't know it!). Dear God - thank you for my sweet ones - I love all 3 so very, very much!
My heart hurts for Cindy Otte & her family--Bryan, Emily, Mel, Erma and others. The body is an amazing creation, yet sometimes God allows the body to succomb to awful diseases . . . hers was cancer. What a brave, brave woman she was. What a hero she is. Thank you Lord Jesus for her courage; for her love; for her Faith in You when all seemed for naught. Thank you for her life and the gift that it is. May people be aware of her gift and use if for Your glory!
Ryan's in Tampa, FL now for Metalcon. He was given notice that his pay would resume with the next paycheck - thank you, Lord, also for this. Dear God, I pray he continues to humble himself before you and know in his heart that he is a FROG (fully relying on God). Wow - we all need to think that because, even if you like frogs, they are just not the prettiest things YOu did create - ha!
Ellen & Emily are Ellen & Emily. Sassafrass (which I am respectfully trying to work on) and Big Mouth Chicken Little (too big for her britches, but she doesn't know it!). Dear God - thank you for my sweet ones - I love all 3 so very, very much!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Bikes & Bruises
Ugh - it has again been so long . . . but, hey, at least I'm here now! Gosh - we've been on vacation; school has started for Ellen (3rd grade) and Erin (1st grade); Emily has started ballet at Angel Feet Dance here in town. Ellen & Erin are both playing soccer--I'm Erin's coach, sweet thing. I'm teaching Sunday School for the year now as well - first, Erin's class, then Natalie's; then Ellens!
Emily is not going to preschool yet; maybe in January. I tell you what - my life is crazy! I definitely feel like the mom & the dad in our lives right now. No, I don't mow the lawn (I could), but I really feel like I do everything else. Oh, yes, the older 2 girls started piano lessons and they are learning so well! I am so excited for them.
BCO has its 50th celebration this weekend. Of course, Ryan's been busy with work, but then again, he's always busy with work. I'm ready for him to have a change so we can have a life again.
I'm doing another Beth Moore bible study - the Psalms of Ascents and it is so good! I love God's word and need to be in it so badly!
I was at a Library Board meeting on Monday and, of course, Ryan wasn't home yet; so the girls rode bike and I walked up there. My meeting started at 7:00 and Ryan came to get the girls. Ellen & Erin wanted to ride home, so on the way back there is a pretty steep hill that they were traveling down at a pretty decent speed (note, I was not there and ryan was in his pu). Well, Erin's handlebars were going back & forth and she hit the bridge posts with her bike and flew onto the concrete bridge. She got up and was bleeding from her mouth down and blood was coming out of her left ear.
Ellen came to get me from the library and we went to the ER at the hospital. Dr. Ratzlaff finally came (of course it seemed like forever) and assessed her. All the while she was moaning, crying out in pain--bleeding, just terribly uncomfortable and hurting so badly. Ellen & Emily were in the hallway just watching/witnessing everything. Ellen was awesome! She took care of Emily; prayed with her; just was an awesome big sister! Praise God for her.
Erin was such a trooper! Granted she was so miserable, but she didn't freak out and maintained relatively calm there. Dr Ratzlaff put 4 stitches in her chin - she had a deep cut there (it looked like someone took a serrated knife and cut on her chin). then we went to the dentist (Dr. Dillnar and he took x-rays). Her ear bled all that night and that night was miserable! Erin complained of her tummy hurting the worst. We just didn't know what to do for her . . . I'll tell you, though, God is good and He so protected her! I fully believe that will my whole being. She did not land on gravel (where they would have had to pick that out of her cuts). Her eyes were not harmed; she did not fall over the bridge or hit the bridge railing with her head or neck (her flipflop was in the water). She was missing her 2 front teeth, except for 1 that was just coming in; consequently, the roots were still open and it doesn't look like she will lose them. Oh, PRAISE YOU GOD FOR YOUR PROTECTION OVER YOUR SAINTS!!! YOU ARE GOOD! THANK YOU SO MUCH LORD JESUS!!!
Thank you mostly for the promise of Your word; Your love; Your steadfastness in the midst of our harlotry. Praise You God, Praise You for Your mercy and lovingkindess to us . . . Praise You! (Psalm 124)
Note: I prayed the last portion of Psalm 91 over my sweet broken, hurting baby . . . Because Erin has set her love upon me, I will deliver her. I will set her on high because she as known My name. She shall call upon Me, and I will answer her. I will be with her in trouble; I will honor her and deliver her; with long life I will satisfy her and show her my salvation. Love, the Lord God Almighty!
Emily is not going to preschool yet; maybe in January. I tell you what - my life is crazy! I definitely feel like the mom & the dad in our lives right now. No, I don't mow the lawn (I could), but I really feel like I do everything else. Oh, yes, the older 2 girls started piano lessons and they are learning so well! I am so excited for them.
BCO has its 50th celebration this weekend. Of course, Ryan's been busy with work, but then again, he's always busy with work. I'm ready for him to have a change so we can have a life again.
I'm doing another Beth Moore bible study - the Psalms of Ascents and it is so good! I love God's word and need to be in it so badly!
I was at a Library Board meeting on Monday and, of course, Ryan wasn't home yet; so the girls rode bike and I walked up there. My meeting started at 7:00 and Ryan came to get the girls. Ellen & Erin wanted to ride home, so on the way back there is a pretty steep hill that they were traveling down at a pretty decent speed (note, I was not there and ryan was in his pu). Well, Erin's handlebars were going back & forth and she hit the bridge posts with her bike and flew onto the concrete bridge. She got up and was bleeding from her mouth down and blood was coming out of her left ear.
Ellen came to get me from the library and we went to the ER at the hospital. Dr. Ratzlaff finally came (of course it seemed like forever) and assessed her. All the while she was moaning, crying out in pain--bleeding, just terribly uncomfortable and hurting so badly. Ellen & Emily were in the hallway just watching/witnessing everything. Ellen was awesome! She took care of Emily; prayed with her; just was an awesome big sister! Praise God for her.
Erin was such a trooper! Granted she was so miserable, but she didn't freak out and maintained relatively calm there. Dr Ratzlaff put 4 stitches in her chin - she had a deep cut there (it looked like someone took a serrated knife and cut on her chin). then we went to the dentist (Dr. Dillnar and he took x-rays). Her ear bled all that night and that night was miserable! Erin complained of her tummy hurting the worst. We just didn't know what to do for her . . . I'll tell you, though, God is good and He so protected her! I fully believe that will my whole being. She did not land on gravel (where they would have had to pick that out of her cuts). Her eyes were not harmed; she did not fall over the bridge or hit the bridge railing with her head or neck (her flipflop was in the water). She was missing her 2 front teeth, except for 1 that was just coming in; consequently, the roots were still open and it doesn't look like she will lose them. Oh, PRAISE YOU GOD FOR YOUR PROTECTION OVER YOUR SAINTS!!! YOU ARE GOOD! THANK YOU SO MUCH LORD JESUS!!!
Thank you mostly for the promise of Your word; Your love; Your steadfastness in the midst of our harlotry. Praise You God, Praise You for Your mercy and lovingkindess to us . . . Praise You! (Psalm 124)
Note: I prayed the last portion of Psalm 91 over my sweet broken, hurting baby . . . Because Erin has set her love upon me, I will deliver her. I will set her on high because she as known My name. She shall call upon Me, and I will answer her. I will be with her in trouble; I will honor her and deliver her; with long life I will satisfy her and show her my salvation. Love, the Lord God Almighty!
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Headaches
Yes ~ again, it's been forever--seems i skipped the whole month of July--so much to tell. Summer has been wonderful albeit a few mishaps. We had the joy of having our nephews from TN down for 10 days and we had a ball with them! We also went up to TN to SURPRISE Reid for his 40th Birthday - it was such a great time. Oh Lord, I was so challenged in my thought closet and I held up the shield of faith and I prayed what I knew--that your love for me is greater than the worlds--and I was so confirmed - oh thank you Jesus, thank you, thank you! A short synopsis would be this: I was so discouraged by an opportunity given to someone else, when the Lord knew that was on my heart to happen for us, and I just questioned. So . . . I went to God in prayer and held up that shield and prayed for my unbelief and confirmed my trust. Then, I went to pick Ryan up from the Memphis airport (he had been in St Petersburg, Russia) and he shared (like the 1st thing he shared) was about a brief encounter with this man in the Moscow airport and his recogniztion of Ryan's wristband which shows this: a cross > i. Ryan explained how it meant God is greater than he is. "So," the guy replied, "you a Christ guy?" Ryan said he was and the man in his overtly loud voice, while slapping Ryan on the shoulder, said "me too! I just tell my wife, she's a Jesus freak."
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??? God spoke directly to me through a man Ryan met in a Moscow airport - God - YOU ARE AWESOME!
Secondly, I had a screaming headache this morning. Actually, I had it last night and instead of waking up, I was just so tired that I would rub my eyes and then fall asleep. So, this morning when I got up to run, my head just throbbed. So, while we were running I would get these sharp pains about every other step right above my eyes. I just prayed. I prayed for God to take the pain away and I also prayed if I was to have the pain, please let me bear it. Doug also prayed for me and HONEST TO THE CREATOR OF LIFE ITSELF by the time we were done running, my headache had totally disappeared. GOD - forgive me when I am so human and so petty and so caught up in temporary. God - help me to show others how to live in Jesus. YOU ARE SO VERY AWESOME!!!
Oh - so much more. I love my husband, I love my girls, I love our families. God, thank you for your blessings. No, thank you for your extravagance! IT IS AWESOME!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??? God spoke directly to me through a man Ryan met in a Moscow airport - God - YOU ARE AWESOME!
Secondly, I had a screaming headache this morning. Actually, I had it last night and instead of waking up, I was just so tired that I would rub my eyes and then fall asleep. So, this morning when I got up to run, my head just throbbed. So, while we were running I would get these sharp pains about every other step right above my eyes. I just prayed. I prayed for God to take the pain away and I also prayed if I was to have the pain, please let me bear it. Doug also prayed for me and HONEST TO THE CREATOR OF LIFE ITSELF by the time we were done running, my headache had totally disappeared. GOD - forgive me when I am so human and so petty and so caught up in temporary. God - help me to show others how to live in Jesus. YOU ARE SO VERY AWESOME!!!
Oh - so much more. I love my husband, I love my girls, I love our families. God, thank you for your blessings. No, thank you for your extravagance! IT IS AWESOME!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
The Shack
Hello there!
I need to get ready for work here very shortly; however, Dear Jesus, I just wanted to verbalize with words my love for You and my thanks for the work You have done ~ You are amazing!!!
Ryan & I finished reading The Shack, by Willam P Young. Wow! What an amazing book. I love so many things the author brings out/portrays. Some are hard for my mind to wrap around them, but boy do I love how the words put such thoughts & expressions together. I love to think that you, Jesus, are "especially fond of me!" I love the conversation You had with Mack about forgiveness and what forgiveness is and what it is not. I love Your redemption given to Mack and to all people who ask. I love that You did Your part once for all to be reconciled to us; now it is our choosing. I love that You love me!
Lord, I pray right now for Carmen Friesen Cutting and her family with the passing of her mom, Ellen. I pray for my Aunt Vickie to whom Ellen was a dear, dear friend. Lord please help them in their sorrow and their hurt and help them to see beyond this pain. Lord, I also pray for Your guidance regarding service. Help me to follow where You lead.
And, Lord, I pray to adore people like You do! "Because . . . if anything matters, than everything matters!" (the Shack)
Amen.
I need to get ready for work here very shortly; however, Dear Jesus, I just wanted to verbalize with words my love for You and my thanks for the work You have done ~ You are amazing!!!
Ryan & I finished reading The Shack, by Willam P Young. Wow! What an amazing book. I love so many things the author brings out/portrays. Some are hard for my mind to wrap around them, but boy do I love how the words put such thoughts & expressions together. I love to think that you, Jesus, are "especially fond of me!" I love the conversation You had with Mack about forgiveness and what forgiveness is and what it is not. I love Your redemption given to Mack and to all people who ask. I love that You did Your part once for all to be reconciled to us; now it is our choosing. I love that You love me!
Lord, I pray right now for Carmen Friesen Cutting and her family with the passing of her mom, Ellen. I pray for my Aunt Vickie to whom Ellen was a dear, dear friend. Lord please help them in their sorrow and their hurt and help them to see beyond this pain. Lord, I also pray for Your guidance regarding service. Help me to follow where You lead.
And, Lord, I pray to adore people like You do! "Because . . . if anything matters, than everything matters!" (the Shack)
Amen.
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